It’s Just What I Do, Plan A, and other forms of covert controlling

(If you’re new to Monkeytraps, Steve is a therapist who specializes in control issues, and Bert is his control-addicted inner monkey.

Steve speaking:)

This is the second of two posts about covert controlling.  (You can read the first post here.)

3. It’s Just What I Do

Dennis keeps logging onto his wife’s  computer to view porn.  “And she keeps asking you not to,” I say.  “Right.”  “And she can always tell when you’ve done it.”  “Always.”   “And afterwards you two always have huge arguments.”  “Yes,” he says sadly.  “So why…”  “I don’t know,” he shrugs.  “I’m an idiot.  I don’t know why I do it.  It’s just what I do.”

Ellie just lunched with two friends, and she’s seething.  “I hate them.  They only talk to each other.  Me they totally ignore.  It’s like I’m not there.  If I try to break into the conversation they look at me like I’m some annoying little sister.  It’s always like this.  I get so upset I have to go to the bathroom to cry.”  This lunch, she adds, is a monthly ritual that’s  been going for years.   “Years?” I ask.  “Why keep going?  Why not  just avoid them?”  She shrugs helplessly.  “They’d be angry,” she says.  “But you don’t like them.”  “Not much,” she admits.  “But I can’t say no.  It’s just what I…”

Frank’s wife makes all decisions for the both of them.  “Everything from dinner to where to vacation to when to have sex,” he tells me.   “Don’t you guys ever discuss things?”  I ask.  “Not really,” he says.  “She tells me what she wants, then says, ‘Okay?'”  “And you agree.”  “Yeah.”  “Ever disagree?”  “Once or twice, when we were first married.”  “What happened?”  “She’s better at arguing than me.  She gets loud, and I get nervous.  So I give in.  It’s easier.”  “Is it really?”  He sighs.  “Maybe not,” he concedes.  “But we’re married eight years now.  Agreeing has become a habit.  It’s just….” 

Welcome to It’s Just What I Do. 

This form of covert controlling shows up in my office every day.  And each time it does I’m reminded of what Fritz Perls said about therapy clients:  

“Very few people go into therapy to be cured, but rather to improve their neurosis.”

Still, It’s Just What I Do used to puzzle the hell out of me.  Because I assumed that any repeated behavior must have some payoff attached to it.  And I couldn’t figure out what the payoff was here.

Then I began to study the idea of control.

And I realized the payoff is all about Plan A. 

4. Plan A

I’ve written about Plan A here before.  It’s my label for everything we learn as kids about life and how to cope with it. 

We each have a Plan A.  We learn it mainly as kids, mainly from our parents, and mainly unconsciously.  No one sits us down and says, “Now listen up.  Here’s how you do life.”  Instead we watch and listen to the grownups around us and absorb what they do like little sponges.   

Plan A becomes our psychological default position, the place to which we revert under stress.  As a coping method it may not work all that well.  But it has one enormous advantage over any other plan:  it’s utterly familiar.   

And therein lies the payoff:  the illusion of control.

Familiarity is enormously reassuring.  We don’t have to analyze anything, learn new behaviors, anticipate new outcomes.   Reverting to Plan A means knowing just what to do and just what will come of it.  

The fact is, most of the time, most of us prefer a familiar pain to an unpredictable adventure.

Which explains why Dennis, terrified of losing his marriage, provokes the same fight again and again.  And why Ellie, afflicted with chronic low self-esteem, lunches with people she hates rather than risking their disapproval.  And why Frank, in treatment for crippling anxiety, tries to reduce his stress by agreeing with his wife about everything.

On some level each of them has decided they’re not ready for Plan B.  Not ready for the emotional stretch, the stress of learning, the shock of fresh feelings, the unpredictability of something new.

So they cling to the familiar. 

We all do.  We’re anxious creatures, we humans.  And our anxiety makes us resist change. 

So we cling to the familiar like a child clings to a teddy bear.  And chase control even what we chase is illusory. 

“The most interesting thing about the control-mad people is that they always end up being controlled,” wrote Perls.  “So the control-mad person is the first one to lose his freedom.  Instead of being in control, he has to strain and push all the time.” 

But it’s what we do.

* * *

Want more?

The adjusted American has learned to regard his personality as an expression of what he was born to be, or what he was conditioned to be, and to assume he can never change dramatically (except, perhaps, for the worse).

There are many people who cling to this conception of a determined self because they shrink from accepting responsibility for being what they are.  Those who cannot accept themselves find a false comfort in believing that heredity, society, parents, or whatever is responsible for the shaping of their lives. 

For such solace as this belief affords them, they trade the possibility of choosing their lives differently and creating a more acceptable self.

From The adjusted American: Normal neuroses in the individual and society by Snell Putney and Gail J. Putney.  Wonderful book, by the way.

* * *

There are those that say you can do nothing and everything is out of your control, and there are those who say that you can do everything and that everything is within your control. The truth, I have discovered, is somewhere in the middle. There is plenty out of your control, so make peace with it, and then let it go. Then refocus your attention back on what you can control: what you think, what you say, and what you do.

From 6 Ways to regain a sense of power by Ollin Morales.

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4 responses to “It’s Just What I Do, Plan A, and other forms of covert controlling

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  • releasing_lunacy (@ReleasingLunacy)

    But, why is it a negative to do what we do? Maybe doing Plan B really will make everything worse. Maybe Dennis stops using his wife’s computer for porn and she thinks he’s become a prude and leaves him. Maybe Ellie refuses the next month’s invite and her friends start spreading nasty rumors about her. Maybe Frank asserts himself, chooses the next vacation destination, everyone has an awful time and he never hears the end of it. Besides, aren’t they just all overtly controlling if they don’t do the covertly controlling things?

    ~rl

    • fritzfreud

      The decision to give up on Plan A is the equivalent of “hitting bottom” for an active addict. It comes at that moment when the pain and futility of what I’m doing now finally outweigh my fear of change, and I realize — not just intellectualy, but with all of me — that I really really really can’t keep on doing it.

      Until I have that experience I’m likely to stick with Plan A. And one way to do that is to raise “What if?” questions, since they support rationalization. “Sure, Plan A sucks, but Plan B could make things even worse.”

      In other words, choosing A over B represents choosing familiarity over the risk of growth. That’s a choice that’s always tempting to make (I make it hourly), and the reason there are so few genuine grownups.

  • releasing_lunacy (@ReleasingLunacy)

    I understand. But with words like change and risk associated with Plan B, I think I’ll stick to Plan A. (Though, actually, I recently went with a Plan B, and it worked out for the best. But, I’m not ready to make a habit out of that just yet!!!)

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